Entry 95

I'm an hour into the series finale of Stranger Things 5 and holy shit I am anxious AF I gotta take a break. I even took a clonazepam about two hours ago but it isn't doing shit for me right now. I need to go meditate and have cigarettes.

Just finished it. There is now a Stranger Things-shaped hole in my heart 😭

I feel like I need to hug someone I care about for a really long time. 😢

I guess I should just move on. There's a whole new year coming in an hour and 40 minutes. Focus on the future.

I find it curious how I seem to be processing the ending of Stranger Things as a kind of loss. Like I'm grieving. I think I'm mostly grieving for the characters.