Entry 100

Anxiety has spiked. My brain feels like it's everywhere simultaenously.

I made a faux pas on Mastodon today and I feel social anxiety about it.

My Crocs are currently being washed so I'm wearing an older pair until they are cleaned and dry. The older pair feels different/off, which contributes to my general sense of unease.

Earlier this morning, I decided to scrap whatever progress I made in using Nix home manager to manage my home directory and dotfiles. I decided it's not something I want to do at this time. After cleaning up that mess, I feel like there is something missing from my computing environment that I need to sort out, but I don't know what it is. It's just this vague feeling of incompleteness.

I'm kind of in decision paralysis about how to proceed with my life at the moment. I have many tasks to do but my mind goes blank when I attempt to prioritize them. This sort of thing tends to resolve itself after some time.

I think I could use a clonazepam and some hot chocolate, and then I will meditate.