Archives for December 2025

Entry 96

Published on 2025-12-31 22:50:28 -0600 by hyperreal

Maybe this is something else talking, but I feel burnt out on tech stuff. I think I need like a week or two of just video games and Discworld. And also some tim...

Entry 95

Published on 2025-12-31 22:42:31 -0600 by hyperreal

I'm an hour into the series finale of Stranger Things 5 and holy shit I am anxious AF I gotta take a break. I even took a clonazepam about two hours ago but it ...

Entry 94

Published on 2025-12-28 05:44:38 -0600 by hyperreal

My paternal grandfather died this morning. He had been struggling with Alzheimer's disease for the past four years. His kidneys were failing, and it got to a po...

Entry 93

Published on 2025-12-27 11:45:25 -0600 by hyperreal

Anxiety is through the roof at the moment. I just took two clonazepams. I might also make hot chocolate. I'll take a shower a little later. At least the house i...

Entry 92

Published on 2025-12-26 22:05:13 -0600 by hyperreal

I finished the three Stranger Things 5 episodes. Looking forward to the finale next week.

Entry 91

Published on 2025-12-26 08:03:13 -0600 by hyperreal

I 'member one time I had a Twitter friend who was also into Elder Scrolls, and I says to her in a DM "I erect the spine of greeting", because that's how Argonia...

Entry 90

Published on 2025-12-25 18:31:04 -0600 by hyperreal

Something triggered my rumination mode earlier. When I'm in rumination mode, I'm in a mood foul and grumpy and don't want to be bothered with literally anything...

Entry 89

Published on 2025-12-20 21:12:40 -0600 by hyperreal

I'm in kind of a foul mood. Mom is in a foul mood because she's got food poisoning. Dad is annoying, as usual. It all rubs off on me. I'm like an emotion chamle...

Entry 88

Published on 2025-12-14 16:45:25 -0600 by hyperreal

I was in a pretty decent mood for a couple days, but this afternoon my thoughts started drifting into negative space. I'm currently at X, Y = (-4, -5), or there...

Entry 87

Published on 2025-12-09 17:24:49 -0600 by hyperreal

My disability benefits are up for review this year. Next week, I have an in-person appointment with the social security administration, where they'd have a doct...

Entry 86

Published on 2025-12-08 19:44:15 -0600 by hyperreal

I kind of want to not be conscious. This world sucks. I don't want to die. I just want to shut my brain and emotions off. I'm going to go chainsmoke vegetativel...

Entry 85

Published on 2025-12-08 11:48:58 -0600 by hyperreal

I have to go to the grocery store.

Entry 84

Published on 2025-12-05 19:30:42 -0600 by hyperreal

I need to calm down and be more rational. I'm all wound up for some reason. There was way to much noise upstairs between the TV, my dad, my niece, and her noisy...

Entry 83

Published on 2025-12-04 16:38:12 -0600 by hyperreal

I'm getting annoyed by the frequency of updates on my CachyOS desktop/gaming rig, again. Strong itch to install Bazzite, again. I'm going to stick this out. It'...

Entry 82

Published on 2025-12-01 21:12:33 -0600 by hyperreal

I feel exhausted. I'm not sleepy, but just physically spent. My forehead muscles are tense and I have bags under my eyes. It helps to relax my face and close my...