feelslog

This is where I try to map my feelings to words. You might find these relatable, crazy, and/or just plain cringe. Regardless, read at your own peril -- or your own schadenfreude.

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Entry 104

Published on 2026-01-28 06:26:33 -0600 by hyperreal
Had to take a clonazepam this morning at around 6 am. For the past few mornings I've had intense visceral anxiety. There's no reliable way to determine what tri...

Entry 103

Published on 2026-01-21 20:01:05 -0600 by hyperreal
Just woke up from phase four of sleep. Sad and scared. Maybe this coffee will perk me up somewhat, put an extra pep in my cognitive steps.

Entry 102

Published on 2026-01-20 23:29:49 -0600 by hyperreal
I suspect I'm going to be a spiced worm for a while yet.

Entry 101

Published on 2026-01-15 01:13:58 -0600 by hyperreal
I'm feeling irritable for some reason. It could be my disordered sleep schedule. It's not even a schedule because that word implies some kind of regularity. The...

Entry 100

Published on 2026-01-14 15:30:13 -0600 by hyperreal
Anxiety has spiked. My brain feels like it's everywhere simultaenously.

Entry 99

Published on 2026-01-08 07:17:30 -0600 by hyperreal
Anxiety and intrusive thoughts this morning. I haven't really been bothered by these OCD-shaped intrusive thoughts in a while. I don't know why I'm getting them...

Entry 98

Published on 2026-01-02 17:04:02 -0600 by hyperreal
I just received good news about the status of my disability benefits. The state of Illinois decided that I'm still eligible and that my disability benefits and ...

Entry 97

Published on 2026-01-02 15:20:51 -0600 by hyperreal
I'm feeling something I would describe as an emotional shiver. This is distinct from emotional coldness or aloofness, as it is not directed outward, but is rath...

Entry 96

Published on 2025-12-31 22:50:28 -0600 by hyperreal
Maybe this is something else talking, but I feel burnt out on tech stuff. I think I need like a week or two of just video games and Discworld. And also some tim...

Entry 95

Published on 2025-12-31 22:42:31 -0600 by hyperreal
I'm an hour into the series finale of Stranger Things 5 and holy shit I am anxious AF I gotta take a break. I even took a clonazepam about two hours ago but it ...