This is where I try to map my feelings to words. You might find these relatable, crazy, and/or just plain cringe. Regardless, read at your own peril -- or your own schadenfreude.

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Entry 87

Published on 2025-12-09 17:24:49 -0600 by hyperreal
My disability benefits are up for review this year. Next week, I have an in-person appointment with the social security administration, where they'd have a doct...

Entry 86

Published on 2025-12-08 19:44:15 -0600 by hyperreal
I kind of want to not be conscious. This world sucks. I don't want to die. I just want to shut my brain and emotions off. I'm going to go chainsmoke vegetativel...

Entry 85

Published on 2025-12-08 11:48:58 -0600 by hyperreal
I have to go to the grocery store.

Entry 84

Published on 2025-12-05 19:30:42 -0600 by hyperreal
I need to calm down and be more rational. I'm all wound up for some reason. There was way to much noise upstairs between the TV, my dad, my niece, and her noisy...

Entry 83

Published on 2025-12-04 16:38:12 -0600 by hyperreal
I'm getting annoyed by the frequency of updates on my CachyOS desktop/gaming rig, again. Strong itch to install Bazzite, again. I'm going to stick this out. It'...

Entry 82

Published on 2025-12-01 21:12:33 -0600 by hyperreal
I feel exhausted. I'm not sleepy, but just physically spent. My forehead muscles are tense and I have bags under my eyes. It helps to relax my face and close my...

Entry 81

Published on 2025-11-27 19:07:44 -0600 by hyperreal
I took a nap after Thanksgiving dinner, around 3 pm. I woke up at around 5:30 pm and felt tired, so I decided I wanted a cup of coffee. I drank the coffee.

Entry 80

Published on 2025-11-23 13:52:37 -0600 by hyperreal
My anxiety has spiked, my brain feels chaotic, like I'm going off the rails (pun not intended), nervous system is a shaken up snow globe. When this happens, I f...

Entry 79

Published on 2025-11-22 08:56:37 -0600 by hyperreal
I'm feeling pretty contented this morning. No major anxiety or sadness. I'm currently working on a project to get my HTTP content and Gemini protocol content in...

Entry 78

Published on 2025-11-21 18:08:07 -0600 by hyperreal
I'm sad, scared, and irritable. My brain is empty -- I don't have anything else to say about these feels.