feelslog

This is where I try to map my feelings to words. You might find these relatable, crazy, and/or just plain cringe. Regardless, read at your own peril -- or your own schadenfreude.

Latest Posts

Entry 77

Published on 2025-11-21 11:56:11 -0600 by hyperreal
This is just a test of a new workflow.

Entry 76

Published on 2025-11-21 09:21:16 -0600 by hyperreal
Anxiety spike. Debating whether I should take a clonazepam or not, or maybe half of one. I haven't had caffeine in two hours, so the acute effects of caffeine s...

Entry 75

Published on 2025-11-19 13:10:26 -0600 by hyperreal
I've been having this recurring dream where we lost our house, or had to move to a new house for some reason. I don't understand why I keep having this particul...

Entry 74

Published on 2025-11-19 05:30:43 -0600 by hyperreal
It is 5:30 am. I'm scared in the general sense.

Entry 73

Published on 2025-11-14 08:58:27 -0600 by hyperreal
Big sigh. I woke up this morning, got my coffee and cigarettes to go into the garage. I'm groggy. My dad is in there. He starts swearing at political shit on th...

Entry 72

Published on 2025-11-09 19:33:32 -0600 by hyperreal
Me: [Sees a post on the fediverse that contains a critical undertone or explicit criticism.]

Entry 71

Published on 2025-11-09 15:59:36 -0600 by hyperreal
My anxiety and executive functioning is just crap today. It's taking me forever to do things that on a good day I can do fairly quickly. I had to take a full cl...

Entry 70

Published on 2025-11-06 13:08:18 -0600 by hyperreal
I'm sad/anxious/scared/automatic negative thoughts. But I'm going to visit my grandpa today and we will watch our shows.

Entry 69

Published on 2025-11-04 23:19:15 -0600 by hyperreal
Braindump commencing...

Entry 68

Published on 2025-11-03 11:18:49 -0600 by hyperreal
I intend to go for a walk outside soon. I'm dreading it. Arguing with myself, rationalizing staying home. I know I'll feel better if I do it, but most of the ti...