This is where I try to map my feelings to words. You might find these relatable, crazy, and/or just plain cringe. Regardless, read at your own peril -- or your own schadenfreude.

Posts tagged with: anxiety

Entry 104

Published on 2026-01-28 06:26:33 -0600 by hyperreal
Had to take a clonazepam this morning at around 6 am. For the past few mornings I've had intense visceral anxiety. There's no reliable way to determine what tri...

Entry 100

Published on 2026-01-14 15:30:13 -0600 by hyperreal
Anxiety has spiked. My brain feels like it's everywhere simultaenously.

Entry 99

Published on 2026-01-08 07:17:30 -0600 by hyperreal
Anxiety and intrusive thoughts this morning. I haven't really been bothered by these OCD-shaped intrusive thoughts in a while. I don't know why I'm getting them...

Entry 95

Published on 2025-12-31 22:42:31 -0600 by hyperreal
I'm an hour into the series finale of Stranger Things 5 and holy shit I am anxious AF I gotta take a break. I even took a clonazepam about two hours ago but it ...

Entry 93

Published on 2025-12-27 11:45:25 -0600 by hyperreal
Anxiety is through the roof at the moment. I just took two clonazepams. I might also make hot chocolate. I'll take a shower a little later. At least the house i...

Entry 87

Published on 2025-12-09 17:24:49 -0600 by hyperreal
My disability benefits are up for review this year. Next week, I have an in-person appointment with the social security administration, where they'd have a doct...

Entry 84

Published on 2025-12-05 19:30:42 -0600 by hyperreal
I need to calm down and be more rational. I'm all wound up for some reason. There was way to much noise upstairs between the TV, my dad, my niece, and her noisy...

Entry 81

Published on 2025-11-27 19:07:44 -0600 by hyperreal
I took a nap after Thanksgiving dinner, around 3 pm. I woke up at around 5:30 pm and felt tired, so I decided I wanted a cup of coffee. I drank the coffee.

Entry 80

Published on 2025-11-23 13:52:37 -0600 by hyperreal
My anxiety has spiked, my brain feels chaotic, like I'm going off the rails (pun not intended), nervous system is a shaken up snow globe. When this happens, I f...

Entry 76

Published on 2025-11-21 09:21:16 -0600 by hyperreal
Anxiety spike. Debating whether I should take a clonazepam or not, or maybe half of one. I haven't had caffeine in two hours, so the acute effects of caffeine s...

Entry 74

Published on 2025-11-19 05:30:43 -0600 by hyperreal
It is 5:30 am. I'm scared in the general sense.

Entry 71

Published on 2025-11-09 15:59:36 -0600 by hyperreal
My anxiety and executive functioning is just crap today. It's taking me forever to do things that on a good day I can do fairly quickly. I had to take a full cl...

Entry 68

Published on 2025-11-03 11:18:49 -0600 by hyperreal
I intend to go for a walk outside soon. I'm dreading it. Arguing with myself, rationalizing staying home. I know I'll feel better if I do it, but most of the ti...

Entry 66

Published on 2025-10-27 06:28:01 -0500 by hyperreal
I went to bed around midnight. Woke up at 4:30 am. Stayed up for bit, then went back to sleep. Woke up at 6:15 am in goblin mode. Misophonia. If visceral anxiet...

Entry 53

Published on 2025-10-07 20:47:25 -0500 by hyperreal
I'm real anxious at the moment. I took a clonazepam about an hour ago but it has not helped yet.

Entry 50

Published on 2025-10-06 14:05:36 -0500 by hyperreal
I gotta eat something but I'm mentally sick to my stomach, and I can't decide wtf I want to eat. I'm currently unwilling to leave the house.

Entry 46

Published on 2025-09-20 12:17:01 -0500 by hyperreal
Me: It's one of those days in which I slept a lot and now I have way too much excitable energy, like hypomanic energy and anxiety. Maybe half a clonazepam will ...

Entry 44

Published on 2025-09-07 16:02:46 -0500 by hyperreal
I was feeling very anxious earlier. I took a clonazepam, took a nap, and I woke up to sadness. Interests and hobbies that I care about don't seem to have as muc...

Entry 26

Published on 2025-06-27 12:44:31 -0500 by hyperreal
Anxiety and disorganization are through the roof today. I feel like I can't focus on anything until certain other conditions have been met. I'm waiting for my d...

Entry 23

Published on 2025-06-20 21:30:02 -0500 by hyperreal
I have decision paralysis, but I'll likely end up prioritizing them by what makes me feel better.

Entry 18

Published on 2025-06-05 18:31:29 -0500 by hyperreal
I had intense anxiety earlier, so I took clonazepam. I'm less viscerally anxious now, but now I have automatic negative thoughts.

Entry 17

Published on 2025-06-01 23:39:18 -0500 by hyperreal
My brain has encountered a sleep-blocking bug. A social event aftershock intrusive thought loop. A surge of anxiety and adrenaline or whatever that keeps me awa...

Entry 12

Published on 2025-05-25 17:03:00 -0500 by hyperreal
Anxiety and sadness is bad at the moment.

Entry 6

Published on 2025-05-22 19:12:00 -0500 by hyperreal
Today there has been an uptick in frequency of various intrusive thoughts, but I haven't been sucked down the rabbit role of any one of them. I just find it cur...

Entry 5

Published on 2025-05-21 13:37:00 -0500 by hyperreal
I have to go somewhere in a couple hours and my anxiety is bad again. I don't want to take clonazepam because I don't feel like I should give in to the universe...

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